I paid for Bento's euthanization. While the sedative was taking effect, I was at the front desk a few steps away, running my card through a reader for $140. I could have refused. They could have waited for the sedative to wear off and we take him home. The decision was in my hands. For Tigtig I also signed the form. I decided how her body would be handled. I petted her and talked to her. I could have paused at any step, told the vet no. The decision was in my hands. I like to think I was a merciful god, easing their deaths. I don't know if they saw it that way.